Yeah, surprise surprise. Never thought I'd come into art blocks, or just losing my passion for it.
Why? Well, guess it's the rise of anxieties of still not getting a job. (no worry, I'm not in danger)
Also, I feel like I need to be concentrating on improving my basic foundational art skills to be a better art teacher, IF I land a position.
And lo and behold, a barrage of fan ideas attack me with relentless force. FIGHT IT!!!
And then I find out recently about Shonen Jump's manga competition, and I want to at least try and whip up something.
It really feels overwhelming, to the point where I just want to drown out my worries at fanfiction.net.
Worst, I find myself being less and less motivated to work and develop Eruti.
Until I realize, this stuff is making me miserable. I love drawing, and spitting ideas onto graphite and paper.
I can't force it, and just let the stories flow. I should just draw whatever comes in mind. Cuz that's how I love spending my time, in a more productive way.
So...even though I've sworn to focus on Eruti, it's kinda drudging. So there's a good chance I'll be doing a lot of fan stuff, and other stories. Heck, it's scary how I'm getting more hyped over new original stories. It's bad enough that I've got 1 that still has yet to see the light of day...make that 2....
Anyway, seems like a lot of people like to look at fanart more than original. But I'm drawing whatever the heck I want. So for those who ask me requests? Sorry. You really want me to draw something? Then pay me. That's what the commission chart was for.
*sigh* I'm not liking where the U.S. is going, but hey, what can you do but go with it.
For all in school or struggling with life in general, God be with you. And Peace out.